youre the best thing i never had;

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2011-08-18T23:18:00.000-07:00

happy birthday vaanawi, i know youre probably never gonna read this but nevermind i will just wish you here haha. ive known you for like maybe 4 years already? yeap this is the fourth year haha and yeah the first year i wasnt that close with you, i wish i was nicer to you at that time though! and we havent really talked much this year, im sorry, we have to go out one day ok?! i miss you so much and i cant wait to see you tonight haha love you pretty! :)

fuck no i just realized that we dont have a nice photo of us together! i wanted to post a photo here but i couldnt find a nice one, just the two of us ):
we have to take one tonight ok! ily, see you.

(:

2011-08-18T10:49:00.000-07:00

hello, i know its really long since ive last updated my blog but im updating it now because of someone! hehehe nicole lam this is for you okay. you know you are really really pretty! hehe are you getting shy now?! hahahaha i love you <3
anyway i wanna watch final destination 5! haha i think its kinda scary maybe?

Mid-terms are over!

2010-07-02T03:38:00.000-07:00

But studying mode still continues unfortunately. Everyone's fussing about PMR, lol. It's not that I'm acting like I don't care, I do care. But I'm not that worried because PMR doesn't matter much at all. What does it do? Nothing. It won't even help you when you further your studies. The college people aren't goanna look for your PMR results.
Anyway, do vote for a friend of mine, Rebecca Soraya :) She's really pretty and I'm sure she'll win the model search. Go to http://www.esteelaudermodelsearch.com.my/semifinalists/ipoh/cata/ and vote for her :)

Jessie, this is for you loser :)

2010-06-15T18:27:00.000-07:00

Jessie Foo, better read this or something will happen to your lover boy :) HAHA
Since you listed down the places you wanna go then I shall list them down too.

Stanne was here.Jessie you heard that??????Something will happen to "Him".Haha.Now you watch out.I have a new crush.Her nickname????Jessie????No....Its ******. ......Never mind,still <3 you

Anyway. Back to the places that I wanna go :
- New York
- Rome
- Paris
- London
- Melbourne

There's a reason why New York tops the list :) You probably don't remember why though. Haha.

IMMA BE IMMA BE IMMA BE :P

2010-06-15T18:14:00.000-07:00

I'm super boreddddddddd. Well, not exactly because we're supposed to be doing some geography project in the school lab but I'll probably do it later. Jessie, I know you're just next to me but HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ;) lmao

Anyway, we had our annual production recently. And this year's sucked. But then we didn't do as badly as I thought we did. If you wanna see, go to my Facebook and view the video that they tagged :) Our dance was titled "Child's Play" and we were like dead dolls coming back to live. So I guess you can pretty much imagine it. We all wore black. Haha.

Oh and World Cup fever nowwwwwwwwww :D
But mid terms are coming soon :/ Gotta start studying.

happiness just seems so out of reach right now..

It's April already. LMAO.

2010-04-06T00:17:00.000-07:00

It's been friggin' months since I've last posted. I abandoned my blog but then recently someone made me feel like blogging again. Don't really know why. Haha.
Or maybe I should abandon my blog forever seeing as I have N O T H I N G to blog about. Feelings? Don't wanna tell the whole word. Daily activities? Too boring. Love life? Too personal.

Anyway,
Happiness: We rarely feel it.
I would buy it, beg it, steal it,
Pay in coins of dripping blood
For this one transcendent good.

-Amy Lowell-

It's true, isn't it? We rarely feel happiness when we really want to feel it so badly. =/

fly with me. ♥

2009-12-08T22:58:00.000-08:00

it's already the third week of the holidays and yet i still haven't started my homework project thingy.
grrrrrrrr. i know someone who has finished it though.

gosh. i just realized it's been weeks since i last updated my blog.
but then again, i've been rather busy lately.

by the way. watched 2012 recently.
and i have to say, it's a damn good movie. totally awesome wei ! ;]
the russian guy who was the pilot is quite hot but too bad he died.
feel like watching it again. :D

Never Knew I Needed .

2009-11-26T00:45:00.000-08:00

currently addicted to Ne-Yo's Never Knew I Needed.
you should listen to it, it's really good.

and it's the holidays now.
gosh, i really wanna leave iis so badly.
to make things worse, a teacher gave us holiday homework.
name won't be mentioned though.
but seriously, what the hell? it's the year end's holiday, for god's sake.
aihh. "she's" threatening us =/

anyway. goanna watch New Moon tomorrow.
but i feel like watching 2012 instead. HAHA.
or maybe the Christmas Carol thingy.

happy birthday to me. HAHAHA.

2009-11-22T18:21:00.000-08:00

well. firstly, i wanna say thanks to everyone who wished me <3
and also for the presents. haha.
short post, goanna go kbox soon. =D

boredom .

2009-11-21T00:43:00.000-08:00

school's over. holiday's just started. boredom strikes, i guess.
had a "wacky hair day" during last day of school, which most of us just sprayed our hair with different colours.
30 balloons and kfc made the party more awesome. hahaha.
some of us wrote messages on the balloons and let it to fly up into the air, it's helium in it. XD

posted with love.

2009-11-18T01:11:00.000-08:00

skipped school today. currently feeling extremely bored. anyway, this is the last week of school. and then 6 whole weeks of boredom before school starts again. i really don't wanna go back to this crap school next year but i guess i have to. ):

english week open day.

2009-11-14T07:28:00.000-08:00

had open day in school today.
i was helping with the treasure hunt and interact!
really tiring. anyways, here's a video of a sketch performance by our classmates named MJ.
enjoy!

undesirable.

2009-11-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

maybe i really have changed alot. maybe it's because of someone, maybe it's just me. maybe i can't make you all forget this, but all i ask for is forgiveness. i apologize if i've hurt or insulted you in any way possible. perhaps i did alot of times, but i just didn't realize it. therefore, i take this oppurtunity to apologize to you. though i know you won't read this, i'll try my best to make this reach to you. i know i'm wrong to have judged you as being annoying but sometimes i can't help it. maybe it's a bad habit i've started. or maybe i'm just totally wrong about you. maybe i haven't really seen your true colours even after knowing you for four years. it's a rare chance that you would forgive me, but i hope you would. because i don't want to leave this school with misery. i really don't. so all i ask for is, forgiveness. though i know you won't forget that i've said those things to you but it would mean a big deal to me if you would forgive me. please.

Seo In Gook - Calling You

2009-11-04T04:48:00.000-08:00

found this on youtube. not bad, eh? :)

untitled.

2009-11-03T04:59:00.001-08:00

and so she realises her mistake.
changes for the best of everyone.
*end of story*

school's crap.

2009-11-03T04:44:00.000-08:00

yes. school sucks. it's like pathetic crap.

thank god there's like only a few more weeks of school.

and as for the results. it's rather bad.

at least i didn't fail any subjects yet. : )

well then. i shall end it here.

and to michael. minta maaf !

muffin.

2009-10-31T23:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUFFIN! (:

this is for someone. don't judge.

2009-10-31T04:27:00.000-07:00

this post is meant for someone. don't bother to ask who is it. just think of it as something in general.

i just can't understand why are you being so ignorant. you're not the only person in this place we call earth. a total of 6.794 billion people living here right now. you can't have your own way every time. when you're more open-minded, you'll have more friends. and when you have more friends around you, you'll eventually feel love when you're with them. now i see why you're usually lonely, only with one or two people to talk to. maybe they people who bother to be friends with you pity you, or maybe they just don't see the real side of you. but what's the point of being so ignorant and ending up with no friends? i'm sure everyone will agree with me saying that having people who really care for you being around you is way better than being lonely. the way you insult people so openly without caring what they feel, makes people look down not only on you but your family too. i know i don't have the rights to judge you or your family, but this is the way i feel about your behaviour. don't you think you're embarrassing your own parents too when you publicly insult innocent people? you always seem to think that you're like the greatest person to have ever lived on earth, but no. everyone has their own talent and something that makes that special and meaningful. you can't have everything to yourself, you cannot be perfect. in fact, no one is perfect. i hope that one day you will finally realize that you aren't and never will be the greatest person alive before you really become a loner.

hangouts.

2009-10-31T03:01:00.000-07:00

had lotsa fun today. went for breakfast with family in the morning first.

then later, met up with friends to watch Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs.

actually wanted to watch Jennifer's Body, but it's 18 above.

after movie, went bowling. for most of us, first time.

had a great time there. i scored a strike! XD

must say thanks to Sri Ram for teaching me how to play. lols.

exam's over baby! :]

2009-10-30T02:16:00.000-07:00

current soundtrack. papparazi by lady gaga.

current mood. happy and just happy.

exam's are over my darlings! yessss. finally get my computer back! anyways. hangouts for sure. tmr, watching movie. :]

lols. i don't even know what to blog about. too bored. today we had arts and math paper 1. most of us drew a label for baby's shampoo. brand name is BLISS. familiar? it's a yogurt brand! lols. but math was a total failure. i hope i'll at least pass math this time. math sucks. anyways, goanna off soon. bye people!

and it all ends here. <3

missing you ?

2009-10-21T03:31:00.000-07:00

current soundtrack. jay sean's down.

current mood. confused.

well. i was reading through my msn history conversation. then i saw something. the email add. long time didn't chat with that person already. don't even know what happened between us. is it me or fate? was i an annoyance to you or you were just playing? i really don't know. ever since that time, i've never admitted that i've missed you. not even once. but i guess, suddenly i miss you? sighs, i thought i've moved on but it's like i'm suddenly falling back? i really don't know what to do now. might just try to occupy myself to avoid thinking about you?

and it all ends here. <3

where are you now.

2009-10-17T22:56:00.000-07:00

current soundtrack. honor society's where are you now.

current mood. undescribably happy.

we are all in missy's house yesterday. well, not all but most of us. we had a damn good time last night, i must say. and the food there was really good! (:

anyways. we were just screaming and laughing like mad people. lols. well, nothing much to blog about actually. for photos, view my facebook profile.

and it all ends here. <3

touch my hand.

2009-10-17T02:33:00.000-07:00

current soundtrack. david archuleta's touch my hand.

current mood. happy and just happy.

deepavali celebration time! :D

open houses and fireworks, here i come. haha.

i'll be going to missy's house later. went to bimbo's house last night. and in case you were wondering, those aren't their real names. might post some photos up later. that is, if i took any.

anyways. follow me, http://twitter.com/pearllytan :)

and it all ends here. <3

crash and burn.

2009-10-15T21:40:00.001-07:00

current soundtrack. savage garden's crash and burn.

current feeling. confused and self doubts.

exams are coming and i know i shouldn't be distracted from my studies with relationship stuffs. i can't help it if i start to have feelings for someone. but at least i can try not have feelings for someone anymore, right? thats what's wrong. i saw them together. i felt jealous? that can't be. but then i guess i am. i thought of confronting him, but i'm afraid to do so. sighs.

and it all ends here. <3

KBSM 2 class of 2009.

2009-09-18T05:56:00.000-07:00

class photos. i'm sure everyone knows who's who. haha.

and it all ends here. <3

Anger Management Problem.

2009-06-02T07:13:00.000-07:00

As most of you guys who have known me since the younger days, you probably have put through alot to still be here together as one, one class, one family. And I have to say that I know I gave you guys alot of problems, hurt you guys, lost your trust here and then. But at that time, I also know that I couldn't and didn't control my emotions, and I get angry very easily. I'm sure that you all have been annoyed or angry back at me. So, I have to say to my classmates, friends, and family, that I'm sorry if I have caused problems, shouted or screamed at you guys for no reason, hurt your feelings and even lost your trust. I am really sorry guys. I'll try my very best everyday to make it up to you guys. Now, I control my emotions, I think twice before I scream or shout. Well, shouting and screaming is something that I very rarely do since the year 2008 started because on that very year, I realized that this problem will take me nowhere. So, it's either I stop now before I lose you guys or all of us will get hurt. And since then, I've tried to control my emotions, tried not to get angry, tried to be reasonable, tried to see things at your point of view everyday. I really hope that you guys will forgive me, just like the saying, forgive and forget. But the thing here is, I don't want to you guys to completely forget this, I want you guys to try to forgive me and support me throughout this time. I hope I'm not asking for too much and I'd understand if I have lost your trust because I finally realize how mean I was last time. And again, I'm really really sorry guys. I wish I could turn back the time and try to fix this problem before it became worse. Sorry.

and it all ends here. <3